dana killer

Please help me to win this contest! I did a tshirt design for a youth aids awareness contest and need all the votes I can get. It's for a great cause, and i would love people to be able to wear this design i did because of that!

--->>> click here and vote a 5 for me <<<----

:) you can vote as many times as you want... throughout the day... or whenever. If you want to re-post this for me or tell your friends to do it too i would really appreciate it!!!!!!!

xox
dana

Hey guys!

I never really come on here anymore, but I wanted to let you know about this awesome new designer boutique I've opened. It's called Envye and located at www.envye.com!  Check it out and pass it on to all your girl friends!

Brands include Betsey Johnson, Rebel Yell, Kill City, J Brand denim, Habitual, William Rast, Cardboard Robot, and lots more!

Also, add the official Facebook page at

http://www.facebook.com/pages/envye/137887665331

xoxox
dana

It's official... The first products and my online store have launched! you can check out my bURnT TOAST collection at www.shopburnttoast.com right now!

Also, if you're from the US, take advantage of the huge savings due to the exchange rate right now.  Everything is priced in Canadian dollars, so you guys will save when purchasing.

Hope you enjoy :)
There is more stuff coming!

xo
Dana

Well not for too long.. but I just hopped on here to let you all know about the launch of my upcoming clothing line! Yes, that's right.  It's DONE and I will be launching very soon. In the mean time, I would love it if you guys would add the official Myspace page www.myspace.com/burnttoastclothing

PASS IT ON!!!!!!!
I am really excited about this you guys!

xox
danakiller

Hey guys
I don't login here much anymore... I just stopped by to check my page.  Add me on Myspace:  www.myspace.com/rockher.  That is where I am!

xo
Danakiller

having my birthday party this weekend. super stoked.  i now have my new house and am ready to let loooose!  should be so much fun and I'm soooo excited to show everyone my new place.  by the way, it's so rad here.  I'm used to it and it's only been a week. I love how I can just look outside onto a park and watch the people go by. that sounds so lame but I need things like that to remind me i'm from the country!

the weirdest thing happened today too.... I was talking to the conceirge here, who is also the manager.... he looks older and kinda looks like he'd be strict.. anyways, he told me today he was in a band and to check them out on myspace, so he wrote it down and i went back to my place and looked it up. here I was totally thinking it would be something like the tragically hip (ew)... but holy crap.. this dude is full on in some underground industrial band, wearing scary makeup and torn up clothes screaming about how awful life is. So weird.  and i'm supposed to look at him as a manager now? haha... yeah right.

just shows you how wrong you can be about someone!

anyways kids, bed time soon... be good. use protection.

xo danakiller

ladies and gentlemen...
my heart is happy again.

been spending time with an awesome someone...
and i cant stop smiling.  finally.

xo
dana

i love ashlee simpsons new song with tim from plain white t's.  just had to let that out.

A lot has happened in a week.  I met up with my ex for drinks, where everything was great until he told me he just started dating someone else.  Ouch.  Why? I don't know... since the reason he broke my heart was because he couldn't be in a relationship at that point in his life.  This was only a couple short months ago.  So, one broken heart that had mended, had once again been crushed. 

I still can't deal with the thought of him and someone else.  Truly, he was the best love I ever had.  Things happen, I get that.. it just hurts.  I'm trying to sort through it all over again.

I am getting sick now, feeling like crap, trying to fight it off with medicine and echinacea.  I'm pretty tired as I type this and am wondering why i am even writing a blog. 

Valentines day can go screw itself this year. 
xo
me

I'm so over this internet popularity game.  It isn't real.  Even people you meet aren't always real.  It used to be fun before it became a duty.  At this moment, I could care less about pleasing the cyber world, because in the end who really cares?  I don't even know these people why should I work so hard to please them?  People can waste so much time on this machine collecting "friends" and trying to be noticed and pretty much abandon real life.  It's not healthy and one day it will hit you that you missed out on so much stuff in Reality.

Having the best/most pictures doesn't make you a better person.  You are a figment of everyone's imagination and in real life have no real friends... or real life for that matter.  Doing photoshoots for the internet and your "Fans" (who don't even know who you really are) does not qualify as a career.  Websites like this one who promote internet popularity and certain pink haired e-celebs are a joke.  Promoting people who don't even do anything and hyping them up like they're great people is ridiculous and I'm so sick of it.

I am more centered on real life now than I ever was, because theres no sense living in a dream world.  I have done so much lately and taken a huge leap from who I used to be to who I am today in only a matter of weeks.   I can only see myself continuing to grow and forget about all this stuff. 

I do love talking to people from around the world that I normally wouldn't have a chance to talk to, but there has to be a line.  I am concentrating on people around me and working on building my future... because no one else is going to do that for me. 

I suggest some of you also take a step back and realize this place isn't real.

xo
Danakiller

I'd be lying if I said I never think I'm fat sometimes, or wish something about me was different.  Over a while, I've realized that everyone thinks this way sometimes.  The people you think would be least likely to hate their bodies always have some part that they're not happy with. 

Your idols, your friend with the "perfect body", the hottest girl in school... ALL think this way at times.  And probably think this way even more than you do because they know that people are watching them and they have a figure to uphold. 

Celebrities pay big money to look the way they do.  Whether it be with plastic surgery, or personal trainers who work them super hard for 2-3 hours a day.  They work very hard to look the way they do, and to many "regular" (meaning non-famous) people, it's not possible to spend thousands of dollars on trainers, diets, or surgery. 

Sure, it IS possible to become a size 2 and look perfect all the time, but the sacrifice in my opinion isn't worth it.  Starving yourself to loose pounds, or going under the knife to make yourself into someone you're not is only a temporary fix, and causes so many other problems emotionally.  Think about it:  if you did become a size 2, will you really feel like you've accomplished something?  Who's to say after that you won't want to become a size 0, or change something else about yourself?  Not only that, who are you really doing it for?  Yourself, or the people who look at you so they view you differently?

When I was younger I was the skinniest girl in my class, maybe even in my whole school at that point.  I ate normally, I didn't stave myself at all, yet was called anorexic by other classmates.  I tried to GAIN weight, it just wouldn't work.  I was a size ONE how gross is that?  And I say gross because I did not want to be the tall skinny girl, and looked like a sack of bones.  Even at a size ONE I was unhappy.  A size that girls now would kill to be for some reason.  I went up to a size three, then finally a size five and was STILL called "too skinny".  (My grandpa even called me "skinny" as a nickname.) So I said screw it.  Womanhood came and I gained some more weight and I was happy.

My point here is that no matter what size you are, people will always judge, and skinny girls definitely do not get the praise they hope for.  Look at Victoria Beckham, she was SO skinny and being critized for it constantly.  She probably thought people would think she'd look better as a size zero and she'd be happier, but guess what, once she got there the comments still didn't stop.  

The public can be cruel, but you've got to be strong inside and realize that these people who put themselves through the pain of getting to look a certain way are not perfect, and you should not be expected to look like them at all.   I would much rather be happy about myself than have to worry about making other people happy with my own image.  It's MINE not anyone else's.

Obviously I still have my "fat days" and days I just feel gross like EVERYONE does, but in the end, I'm happy being 5'8" and 120lbs.  After all that work trying to gain it, why go backwards. 

I realized that if you're going to change yourself, do it for YOU not for anyone else. And if anyone ever calls me fat after I worked to gain weight, I might have to slap them.

xo Danakiller

and I don't know how to fix it.

how can a person put so much love into something and then not have it returned? 

i may never understand why things happen, but i realize that they have to happen... even if they're hard to deal with.  that is why we're all alive... to experience and learn and everything is going to turn out the way it was planned to work out from the moment we were all born.  i realize you can't change this and you can't change another person's fate or path either. 

who knows why things happen (good or bad) but it's true that everything does happen for a reason.  every step of your life you've taken, was taken to get to you where you are now.... and will continue to take you to where you are supposed to be. 

even knowing this, it still hurts so much.  how do you get over a broken heart?

1,000.00 USD = 983.35 CAD

Not liking this come on US you're supposed to help me make money not lose it.

WOOWOO! Britney lost custody of her kids!  Another dramatic situation the ex-pop hoochie brought on herself. 

That would sound mean if it wasn't about her.  This is probably one of the smartest things the "hollywood" judges have settled on.  I'm sure if it was anyone else (a non-celebrity type I mean), Child Services would have stepped in SO long ago.  Did she really think it wouldn't happen?  I mean she's in magazines every week for doing another stupid act and flaunting her drug/alchohol abuse problems. 

NO child should grow up under those circumstances ever.  Famous parents or not.  I bet they hardly even spent time with her due to her being out clubbing, flashing her snatch and shaving her head to match anyways.  Come on, imagine that was your MOM.  It's about time justice was served.  I'm sure there will be some mental scarring on her kids when they get a little older.  It's so sad.

I'm not too sure about passing them off on K-Fed though.  Just imagining him with kids kind of makes me hesitate, but who knows maybe he'll prove people wrong. 

xo danakiller

 

I'm tired and in bed waiting to fall asleep. I always have trouble sleeping because I think too much... mostly about work. I have so many ideas that are always bouncing around in my head. I used to think everyone thought like that but I'm realizing more and more that they don't. I dunno.. I've always had millions of ideas ever since I could talk. I'm constantly thinking of what I could do if one thing doesn't work out, sort of like a backup plan I guess. I've always known what I want to do and have always made those things happen how I want them to. I still worry that things could all fall apart one day, but so far I guess I've been lucky.

on another note, I finally sent in my info to myspace. they've been telling me to work for them forever. I guess they're gonna go over my stuff and call me if I get the job. apparently I'm shoe-in but who ever knows. it seems like if I talk about upcoming jobs they never happen. I wonder why that is. it would just be a contracted design job basically doing what I'm doing now, only finishing a few of their projects at the same time. I wouldn't give up bandspaces that's for sure. the cool thing though is that they're international, so if I wanted to go work in england or something for a while, they would fly me out there. sounds too good to be true right? well some things are but ill let u know what happens!!

nite kids
xo danakiller

Just got back from watching I Still Know What You Did Last Summer.  Kinda scared (I'm such a wuss) since I'm all by myself here now.  Bear will protect me haha. He got a haircut today, he's so handsome.

What's new with you guys?  I had a good long weekend back at home in the country.  I just hung out with the fam on the new deck I bought my mom.  Didn't do too much else.  I moved a big pile of dirt in the scorching heat so I was proud of myself haha.  Manual labor is definitely not my thing.

I'm working on this awesome page for this wicked drum company.  They make custom drums for tons of bands and their work is awesome.  I'm getting a sweet custom kit out of the deal and am pretty stoked to get back to playing.  I haven't played drums for years now after I had to give up the old ones.  They're pimping them out for me though... they're gonna have custom laminates in my very favourite damask pattern (aka old wallpaper pattern).  Can't wait!

Summer is OVER which is weird because I blinked and August passed.  John's birthday is in 2 weeks and I still don't know what to get him.  My original plan is more difficult than i expected.  Our 1 year is a week after that too. Yay celebrations!

Hope everyone is enjoying BACK TO SCHOOL time hahaha.  I'm soooo glad I'm done that and never have to do it again. The greatest feeling is when you're finally done, so those of you who are still in school, just stick with it, earn your checkmarks and x's then feel proud of yourselves once you're finally done. 

oh woah oh oh ohhh...
hangin tough
xodanakiller

 

So that mobile blog I had is discontinuing their service, so I moved to http://danakiller.vox.com ... check it out.   I haven't gotten all the photos back up yet but I will be adding more to it soon. 

Why don't I just use this blog you say?  well they have this sweet application for my phone (i use a Palm OS) that lets me easily update photos and blogs and stuff without having to "email" anything.  So, until BUZZNET decides to make a sweet app like this one, I'm sticking to it!

goodnight love-lies
xo danakiller

Alright so remember that post I made a while ago about not being able to figure out what the building beside me is? Well I just found out after doing some hardcore research haha.

Yes, I was right about it being a house (though it could be an apartment building its so huge)... apparently I'm neighbors with Allan Slaight! He's a very very very successful broadcaster (used to be magician) and owner of Slaight Communications, which owns a whole crapload of our popular radio stations here and internationally among other things. He's about 80 now which is probably why I never see anyone come out of that place.

Not very exciting news, but I'm stoked I finally found out who the mystery mansion belongs to.

until my next conquest,
xo danakiller

Heidi and Spencer's radio interview with q102.

I loooooove the Hills, but I can't believe these two haven't given it up yet.  How many interviews are they going to do for the soul purpose of bashing Lauren? 

Have I ever said how much I HATE Spencer Pratt?  I really don't hate a lot of people but he just gets under my skin so much that I'm pretty sure if I saw him in person, I'd trip him and throw rocks at his stupid teeth.

Heidi has to be the dumbest girl ever.  She is the 1% of people who actually like him.  I thought she was already stupid enough on the show, but after this interview she's reached a whole new level of stupid.  She completely ran her best friends out of her life and for what!? Life with SPENCER?  Lauren was just trying to look out for her the whole time because (as the whole world can see) he's a douche and manipulator.  One day she'll wake up and realize what she's done to herself.

Pratt: “I have never been so madly in love as I am with Heidi. She has the world’s greatest boyfriend!”

Umm.. ew.. who would say that about themself!?  He could have said "she's the world greatest girlfriend" but sorry I forgot, that would mean there's someone else in the world besides him.

Spencer and Brody aren't even friends anymore.... hmmm how odd.  Looks like they got rid of everyone!  What will Brody do without his manager now?

Which brings me to yet another rant... This guy's got his own management/publicity/who-the-hell-cares company, yet is seen all over the world portraying the image of an enraged 15 year old.  Ever heard of professionalism there Spencer? I bet people are DYING to be on your roster now!

And PLEASE!! (regarding the interview clip)... Everyone knows she got a boob job! (didn't she even admit it somewhere a while ago?) WHY do girls always deny it after they have it done? LAME. Oh wait here it is from US Weekly:

Montag: “It’s astonishing that she would say that. I guess she forgot that I was in the hospital that week [Montag got breast implants and rhinoplasty on April 2.]

Ugh... Anyways I'm done here.  I can't wait for the day when I hear that someone finally ran him over with a truck.  Actually, I'd rather just wait for the day he closes his mouth.

xo
danakiller