dana killer

I don't know about you guys, but I'm sick of everyone saying that Avril Lavigne is a sell-out.  I'm not a fan at all nor do I like her music, but this comment people keep making is completely ridiculous.

FIRST of all, the music... Avril was never "punk".  She was ALWAYS pop... .Hello, Complicated? (I'll stay away from my own comments on her stealing everything for now...)

SECONDLY, people say she's going against all of her initial beliefs and statements she made when she was what, like ... 17?! 

I don't know about you, but I sure as hell know that everything I said and did when I was 17 or in high school is completely irrelevant now.  I don't think the media or critics, or even general public, seem to understand that girls do grow up.  It just sucks when you're in the public eye because they critique every little thing you do. 

But come on, I was totally a tomboy back in the day, much like a little Avril myself, and would never EVER set foot in "girly" clothes or even carry a purse.  Now, I can't get enough of designer jeans and fancy purses.  It's not going against what I believed in, it's just maturing and realizing who you are.

Just because someone changes what they like or what they believe in over a course of 5 years does not make them a "sell-out".  People change, the world changes.  I just wish narrowminded critics would change too. 

xo
danakiller

 

Hey hey

If you might be interested, you can check out my mobile blog at http://splashblog.com/danakiller/.

It's where I post photos from my cell of randomness.

xo danakiller

There's this huge building right outside my window and I can't for the life of me figure out what it is or who lives there.  the whole back of it has had its windows sealed in, and theres some painting on the side of it that looks like a logo and says something about a dry cleaners... it looks like its from the 50s or something though. 

The front of this place is incredible looking.  It's been redone in grey stone and has huge ass doors and what looks like a big garden that's all enclosed.

Tara and I went snooping a while ago to figure out the mystery, and over the super high fence i could see through the garden and it looked like a house.  A room was all lit up.  We knocked to see if anyone would answer.  All we heard was a doggie barking from inside. 

I came to the conclusion that a famous person must live there and thats why it's so private. 

So the mystery still remains... I wonder if I'll ever solve it.

xodanakiller

apparently my friends requests were working, I just had it set to auto add or something. hahaha. i'm stupid.

UPDATES ON ME!
-last week's drama is finally over... he decided he wanted to work things out so we're getting back on track now. thank god.

-i'm heading to the dentist today (oh joy) because i felt guilty that i hadn't been in so long. 

-my little bear bear is featured on the front page of buzznet haha. he's slowly becoming the world's most famous dog (a.k.a killscene mascot).

-tara made me try sushi this weekend for the first time ever.  i liked it... definitely don't like how you have to stick the whole thing in your mouth, but i guess you get used to that.

-we also watched rise of the silver surfer, and honestly i didn't like it. 

uhhh that is all for now!

xodanakiller

There's a problem or something with my friend requests.  some days I can see all of the requests from you guys on my page, then when I try to approve them the page is blank.  I don't get it.. but I haven't been able to add anyone back in like a week so hold tight! maybe someone will help figure this out for me?

anyways, that's why i haven't added you back. i love you i promise :P

xodanakiller

I've been a little bit crazy-in-the-head lately. I'm losing the one person I truly love, for reasons that are completely unexpected and i don't understand.

He thinks that letting me go will help solve the reasons he's unhappy with his life. I don't understand how you can say that to someone who means the world to you, and who you know makes you happy. He knows he loves me... this doesn't make sense.

I'm so confused right now... I'm trying to give him his space and let him clear his head but am afraid he might not come back. I can't imagine my life without him. I honestly don't know what I'd do with myself. Not only is he my boyfriend, but he's like my best friend and such a big part of my daily life.

How is letting me go a way to solve anything! You're only causing more pain on both sides, when you could just be trying to help each other out.

Whoever said "if you love someone, set them free" was on crack and probably died a long, depressed, regretful life.

xodanakiller

I'll drown my beliefs
To have you be in peace
I'll dress like your niece
To wash your swollen feet

Just don't leave
Don't leave

I'm not living
I'm just killing time
Your tiny hands
Your crazy kitten smile

Just don't leave
Don't leave

And true love waits
In haunted attics
And true love lives
On lollipops and crisps

Just don't leave
Don't leave

Just don't leave
Don't leave

You are about to read something that really gets to me.

People who act fake to the people they worship or want to be like.  By this, I mean candy-coating your idols in lavish comments about how wonderful they are... even when they're obviously not.   i.e.  telling them they look gorgeous when they're so obviously looking super horrible.

The first thing most people don't realize is that your idols aren't as great as you expect them to be.  Trust, and take this from someone who knows.  I've had many experiences with false idols.  You think you know someone from reading about them or admiring them on the internet, when in real life that person is a pretentious ass... probably thanks to the praise you gave them that wasn't required in the first place. 

Some of these people you applaud feeeeeed off your jealousy and admiration, so what's the point of putting them on an even higher pedistal when they don't even deserve it?

I'm not saying don't show any appreciation for them, i'm just saying don't act fake and pretend you're their best friend when they don't deserve it.  Don't try to be like them because you're much better off just being yourself.

Idolize people who have done some good in the world.  Taking a pretty picture should not  qualify as a good deed, or be the reason you bend over backwards to please and feed the monster.

That is all.

xodanakiller

I love long weekends.

Going to dinner tonight then down to the beach to watch a huge fireworks show. I can't wait :)

It's weird being in the city for long weekends... Everything costs money and no one knows how to have a good old country party (you know, with bbqs, fire pits and marshmellows haha).  I miss my home sometimes.

My mom's babysitting Bear for the weekend so I can actually stay out.  Having a dog is like having a kid, i swear.  I've turned into a married old mom.

Anyways, Happy Canada Day fellow Canadians! Go paint your face!

xo danakiller

ME ME!

No one cares anymore!  Britney news should be banned from everything.  It's always the same crap: "look what she did THIS time!" WHO THE EFF CARES!  Yes, we know she's bald, insane, and likes to get naked in hopes that maybe someone will think she's attractive again.   The girl's been fake and messed up since the beginning was I the only one who could see this?

Point is... NO britney news is NEW news. So stop posting it god dammit. I'm sick of seeing her ugly fat alien head everywhere i turn.

xo danakiller

If you're from Canada, you know what the MMVAs are.  For those that don't know, it's our version of the MTV movie awards... only put on outside the Much Music building in the streets of Toronto. 

They make it out to be a huge event, closing down streets and building huge stages and sets, and hyping it up like it's the greatest award show in the world.  In reality, there are only about 10 musical "celebrities" who perform (Avril Lavigne, Maroon 5, Hilary Duff, Fergie, Belly?...), all of which appear in the nominations over and over again.  I'm convinced they just switch the order they appear in.  I guess it's safe to say that if you're a band/artist/director who shows up at the award show, you're bound to get an MMVA of your own.

The MMVAs are a cool idea, that atmosphere is a cool idea,  I just wish they could pull together as many people and celebrities as they can for the MTV awards.  It doesn't make sense to me really... Since Much Music probably plays the artist's music videos wayyy more than MTV does... you'd expect them to appreciate it and get a first class flight to Toronto.  I realize that will never happen, so why even bother having an awards show if it's gonna be shitty anyways?

xodanakiller

hit me up on aim if you're lonely, bored, excited, sad, or can't sleep haha. 

xdanakillerx

Last night i went to hang with my buddy steve and we saw this incredible local band called Lights.  It's made up of one chick on keyboard, and 2 other dudes on keyboard/triangle and drums. 

I hardly go on about bands, but seriously we were standing there tripping out and laughing, wondering how this trio could sound so good live.  it sounded like it was just music playing on a stereo or something but kept messing with our minds.  i guess the best part about it was they kept surprising us with awesome sounds and breakdowns.  They even played a triangle god dammit!  I dont' know the girl's name, but her voice is rad and it was probably some of the best live music i've heard in a long time. 

check them out on myspace www.myspace.com/lightsnoise and let me know what you think!

party tonight!!!

xodanakiller

yawwwwwwn it's morning and my legs need a break from yesterday.

I went to the weed march here in toronto.... it's like this huge protest/hangout that happens every year in Queens Park to regulize marijuana... and you can actually smoke legally there.  I'm not a huge pothead or anything, i just think that alcohol is far more dangerous that pot and it's stupid how that's legal and this is not... especially when as many people smoke it as the amount of people who smoke cigarettes (ew).  There's my protest hahaha. 

There were tons of people there... i don't know how many thousand showed up this time but it totally made me feel like I was in the 60's and part of some movement or something haha.

Later on that night, I went to check out my friends in Mugshot who I hadn't seen in forever.  I missed their set but got to catch up a bit after.  It was good.  I need to start going out more... I feel like i've lost my partying edge.

Today I'm heading home again... even though I don't really feel like it. 

Catch ya later.

xodanakiller

i'm home for the weekend and it's been pretty boring.  I mean I love seeing my family and stuff, but this town is wayyy too dead. 

i went to Winners today with my bro's gf, kenzie, and bought so many tops.  I didn't know that winners had so many designers that I thought I could only find on ebay haha.   I'm a pro at spotting clothing from my fav labels so I went a little crazy and couldn't help myself.  take that ebay!

I'm heading home later tonight... don't know what I'll do when i get there but it's gotta be at least a little more exciting than sitting here. 

I have a lot of pages to start, including work for Ricky Martin (hahaha... yes he's apparently still alive!) Maroon 5 and Dave Matthews Band.  Not a fan really but hey, they pay my bills! (and my compulsive shopping sprees).

I hear my dog tearing up something right now so I better get outta here!

peace!
danakiller

I'm here finally! I moved into my new place on the weekend.  Everything turned out exactly how I wanted it to and it looks amazing.  I'll take some pics or a video or something and post it so you guys can see all my hard work!

It feels weiiird living on my own. I like it though. It's different.  Tara and Chrissy came over on my first night and checked it out.  Thinking of having a housewarming party next weekend. hmm...

Butch show is tomorrow night. That should be a good time i'm stoked. Toad's in town so we're meeting up later on and gettin crazy. It will be good to get back on the scene since I haven't done anything in a while. 

John's comin over in a bit so I better clean up so he doesn't think i'm a huge slob. haha. see ya!

xo danakiller

so the birthday didn't turn out as planned at all. first of all they wouldn't let me check in!  They asked me if i was aware of their no Party Policy and I said yes but I would be having a couple people in and then we would be leaving.  Apparently that was a huge problem because they don't allow even ONE visitor to go up to your room for even 5 mins.  Very strict. So they wouldn't let me stay there. Bastards. So, after freaking out in my car for a while I decided to do the next best thing and get a room at the hotel next door to this one.  Of course it was no penthouse suite because you have to book those way in advance (ugh) so i got a shittier room and had the party there.  It was alright... nothing like I had wanted or planned.  Oh well.

I move on Friday and I'm getting nervous! I've never lived on my own before and its soooo soon! I'm really excited though too.

Bear's getting neutered right now :( poor little guy.  It was so sad when I took him in. He looked at me like he thought I was leaving him there forever.  Now he's gonna hate me for getting his nuts chopped off haha. 

Anyways theres some short stories for ya. hope you enjoyed

xo danakiller

and i'm taking it slow!

 

xo danakiller

what's dana killer up to today?

well, i just finished scarfing down some lunch... these yummy veggie egg roll things mmm.  i worked all day before that after getting woken up a million times this morning. I can't wait to move.. no more morning noise. my brother is SO loud in the morning it drives me insane. He never gets up when his alarm goes off the first time, so it goes off THREE times until he's out of bed. Of course I wake up during the first ring and already that's way too early. THEN he decides to start hammering something! hello, its 7am why are you hammering!?  as if his voice isnt loud enough, he turns on his tv and i can hear every word. not my idea of a good sleep!

I'm going to john's again tonight and coming back tomorrow.  we're gonna watch the gilmore girls, one of our fav shows ever haha.  seriously, i think he's one of the few guys who actually like the show... well, and rory.  he's the greatest.

bear graduates doggie school tomorrow! i'm so proud of my little muffinheadbearbear.  i finally taught him to stop barking which is a miracle.  he better like apartment life!

alright lunch is done, back to work :P

-xodanakiller

lets talk for a second about the small percent of the losers on the internet who spend their time trying to take over someone else's life.

i'm talking about someone in particular who thinks we don't notice her attempts to obsessively be like my best friend tara.

by obsessive i mean following and immitating her every move, from stealing boyfriends to friends and online friends, to doing the exact same things that have already been conquered by tara. that doesn't sound so bad i suppose, but when you realize its happening offline and in real life it's kinda scary and really pathetic.

i don't understand why trying to be like someone else is satisfying.  what a tiring life!  i mean you not only date the same people, but you make it your duty to make sure you have all of the same "friends"... WHAT is the point of that!?

you probably know who you are by now... lord knows you are reading this right now... i AM one of the people really connected to tara, so you must be a regular lurker. i just want you to know that your being sooo pathetic and we all see it and really there's no point. you will neverrrrr be tara.  go find your own life and stop trying so hard to be someone else.

I don't know where to start today. I have to continue packing but am so not in the mood. i move april 1st, which is sooo soon!

My birthday is this week on the 22nd, and my party is on the 23rd. It's called Party like a Rockstar and I'm having it in a penthouse of a hotel. it's gooorgeousss and i'm stoked. I'm being the jakalope chick. tara's being avril. i heard Slash is comin too :P

we're going to see Butch on the 6th also. i haven't chilled with him in too long so its about time.

i have to figure out what to do with my phone. I want to get vonage... i wonder what that's like. It seems ok, any users out there?... pretty cheap which is always good.  my rent is enough as it is.

well kids, i'm back to work.
xo danakiller