dana killer

I don't know about you guys, but I'm sick of everyone saying that Avril Lavigne is a sell-out.  I'm not a fan at all nor do I like her music, but this comment people keep making is completely ridiculous.

FIRST of all, the music... Avril was never "punk".  She was ALWAYS pop... .Hello, Complicated? (I'll stay away from my own comments on her stealing everything for now...)

SECONDLY, people say she's going against all of her initial beliefs and statements she made when she was what, like ... 17?! 

I don't know about you, but I sure as hell know that everything I said and did when I was 17 or in high school is completely irrelevant now.  I don't think the media or critics, or even general public, seem to understand that girls do grow up.  It just sucks when you're in the public eye because they critique every little thing you do. 

But come on, I was totally a tomboy back in the day, much like a little Avril myself, and would never EVER set foot in "girly" clothes or even carry a purse.  Now, I can't get enough of designer jeans and fancy purses.  It's not going against what I believed in, it's just maturing and realizing who you are.

Just because someone changes what they like or what they believe in over a course of 5 years does not make them a "sell-out".  People change, the world changes.  I just wish narrowminded critics would change too. 

xo
danakiller

 

Hey hey

If you might be interested, you can check out my mobile blog at http://splashblog.com/danakiller/.

It's where I post photos from my cell of randomness.

xo danakiller

There's this huge building right outside my window and I can't for the life of me figure out what it is or who lives there.  the whole back of it has had its windows sealed in, and theres some painting on the side of it that looks like a logo and says something about a dry cleaners... it looks like its from the 50s or something though. 

The front of this place is incredible looking.  It's been redone in grey stone and has huge ass doors and what looks like a big garden that's all enclosed.

Tara and I went snooping a while ago to figure out the mystery, and over the super high fence i could see through the garden and it looked like a house.  A room was all lit up.  We knocked to see if anyone would answer.  All we heard was a doggie barking from inside. 

I came to the conclusion that a famous person must live there and thats why it's so private. 

So the mystery still remains... I wonder if I'll ever solve it.

xodanakiller

apparently my friends requests were working, I just had it set to auto add or something. hahaha. i'm stupid.

UPDATES ON ME!
-last week's drama is finally over... he decided he wanted to work things out so we're getting back on track now. thank god.

-i'm heading to the dentist today (oh joy) because i felt guilty that i hadn't been in so long. 

-my little bear bear is featured on the front page of buzznet haha. he's slowly becoming the world's most famous dog (a.k.a killscene mascot).

-tara made me try sushi this weekend for the first time ever.  i liked it... definitely don't like how you have to stick the whole thing in your mouth, but i guess you get used to that.

-we also watched rise of the silver surfer, and honestly i didn't like it. 

uhhh that is all for now!

xodanakiller

There's a problem or something with my friend requests.  some days I can see all of the requests from you guys on my page, then when I try to approve them the page is blank.  I don't get it.. but I haven't been able to add anyone back in like a week so hold tight! maybe someone will help figure this out for me?

anyways, that's why i haven't added you back. i love you i promise :P

xodanakiller

I've been a little bit crazy-in-the-head lately. I'm losing the one person I truly love, for reasons that are completely unexpected and i don't understand.

He thinks that letting me go will help solve the reasons he's unhappy with his life. I don't understand how you can say that to someone who means the world to you, and who you know makes you happy. He knows he loves me... this doesn't make sense.

I'm so confused right now... I'm trying to give him his space and let him clear his head but am afraid he might not come back. I can't imagine my life without him. I honestly don't know what I'd do with myself. Not only is he my boyfriend, but he's like my best friend and such a big part of my daily life.

How is letting me go a way to solve anything! You're only causing more pain on both sides, when you could just be trying to help each other out.

Whoever said "if you love someone, set them free" was on crack and probably died a long, depressed, regretful life.

xodanakiller

I'll drown my beliefs
To have you be in peace
I'll dress like your niece
To wash your swollen feet

Just don't leave
Don't leave

I'm not living
I'm just killing time
Your tiny hands
Your crazy kitten smile

Just don't leave
Don't leave

And true love waits
In haunted attics
And true love lives
On lollipops and crisps

Just don't leave
Don't leave

Just don't leave
Don't leave

You are about to read something that really gets to me.

People who act fake to the people they worship or want to be like.  By this, I mean candy-coating your idols in lavish comments about how wonderful they are... even when they're obviously not.   i.e.  telling them they look gorgeous when they're so obviously looking super horrible.

The first thing most people don't realize is that your idols aren't as great as you expect them to be.  Trust, and take this from someone who knows.  I've had many experiences with false idols.  You think you know someone from reading about them or admiring them on the internet, when in real life that person is a pretentious ass... probably thanks to the praise you gave them that wasn't required in the first place. 

Some of these people you applaud feeeeeed off your jealousy and admiration, so what's the point of putting them on an even higher pedistal when they don't even deserve it?

I'm not saying don't show any appreciation for them, i'm just saying don't act fake and pretend you're their best friend when they don't deserve it.  Don't try to be like them because you're much better off just being yourself.

Idolize people who have done some good in the world.  Taking a pretty picture should not  qualify as a good deed, or be the reason you bend over backwards to please and feed the monster.

That is all.

xodanakiller

I love long weekends.

Going to dinner tonight then down to the beach to watch a huge fireworks show. I can't wait :)

It's weird being in the city for long weekends... Everything costs money and no one knows how to have a good old country party (you know, with bbqs, fire pits and marshmellows haha).  I miss my home sometimes.

My mom's babysitting Bear for the weekend so I can actually stay out.  Having a dog is like having a kid, i swear.  I've turned into a married old mom.

Anyways, Happy Canada Day fellow Canadians! Go paint your face!

xo danakiller