dana killer

i love ashlee simpsons new song with tim from plain white t's.  just had to let that out.

A lot has happened in a week.  I met up with my ex for drinks, where everything was great until he told me he just started dating someone else.  Ouch.  Why? I don't know... since the reason he broke my heart was because he couldn't be in a relationship at that point in his life.  This was only a couple short months ago.  So, one broken heart that had mended, had once again been crushed. 

I still can't deal with the thought of him and someone else.  Truly, he was the best love I ever had.  Things happen, I get that.. it just hurts.  I'm trying to sort through it all over again.

I am getting sick now, feeling like crap, trying to fight it off with medicine and echinacea.  I'm pretty tired as I type this and am wondering why i am even writing a blog. 

Valentines day can go screw itself this year. 
xo
me

I'm so over this internet popularity game.  It isn't real.  Even people you meet aren't always real.  It used to be fun before it became a duty.  At this moment, I could care less about pleasing the cyber world, because in the end who really cares?  I don't even know these people why should I work so hard to please them?  People can waste so much time on this machine collecting "friends" and trying to be noticed and pretty much abandon real life.  It's not healthy and one day it will hit you that you missed out on so much stuff in Reality.

Having the best/most pictures doesn't make you a better person.  You are a figment of everyone's imagination and in real life have no real friends... or real life for that matter.  Doing photoshoots for the internet and your "Fans" (who don't even know who you really are) does not qualify as a career.  Websites like this one who promote internet popularity and certain pink haired e-celebs are a joke.  Promoting people who don't even do anything and hyping them up like they're great people is ridiculous and I'm so sick of it.

I am more centered on real life now than I ever was, because theres no sense living in a dream world.  I have done so much lately and taken a huge leap from who I used to be to who I am today in only a matter of weeks.   I can only see myself continuing to grow and forget about all this stuff. 

I do love talking to people from around the world that I normally wouldn't have a chance to talk to, but there has to be a line.  I am concentrating on people around me and working on building my future... because no one else is going to do that for me. 

I suggest some of you also take a step back and realize this place isn't real.

xo
Danakiller